Um... Hi?

I am trying to keep posting here. And at the boards. Apparently, it seemed as if I was off the planet. But I'm not. I'm well... overworking and overstudying and I wouldn't have it any other way.

I just figured out something that has been building inside of me for a while: I'M OLD!! I mean not old, old... just older.

As some of you guys may know, I work with kids which is really cool even when I'm trying to strangle them with my cordless phone. I love them to pieces. But most of the kids I work with are around 13. You see, when kids are 13 they start thinking of boys (or girls, whichever the case may be), and they fall in love and out of love every week. It's cute, really. I've been through several break-ups, and rejections, and new relationships so many times.... I mean, I think I've had a total of 9 or 11 altogether, just this month. And it reminded me, how cute it used to be.

I miss that. Kids here, at that age think that they are so mature. I'm now supposed to curse in front of them because "they can take it, their older now". I have little girls, saying 'I love you' to little boys after they have been dating for a week. Do any of you remember how that felt? Because I don't. I don't remember a time when it felt that good to be so carefree. That feeling of owning the world the moment the kid you like comes over to you, at recess, and gives you a chocolate kiss that he propably stole from his mother's bag of candy when she wasn't looking. And the feeling of being a queen when he gave it to you in front of your friends. And your friends "oohh"ed and "aaww"ed for so long.

I hardly remember what my first boyfriends looked like!!

I always say with my friends, that that was such a happy moment. And in all honesty, I hardly remember it.

Do you remember the time when you had ice-cream because you wanted to and not because you think you deserve it after being on a diet for a gazillion months?

I guess that if I had less ice-cream then, I could probably have more ice-cream now. lol.

Being around kids is so amazing. Because if I wasn't around them, I would probably stop trying to remember how it used to feel.

We were together with my friends from work, and there were only a handful of kids left and we were telling them how it used to be when we went to school. They couldn't even think of not having a cell phone! How did we get in touch with our parents?!?!?! It was a really big scandal. They were telling us how they hate their uniforms (polo shirts and jeans.... they wear that every day, except that it doesn't have the school logo on it, but whatever!) and we started telling them about how the school teachers ran a checkup on our school skirts every once in a while, and the hell that they put us through when they did that. How they used to check our uniforms and see if our shoes were polished. I USED TO HATE THAT!!!! But now, I remember it, and it was so great! Because I can laugh about it now.

So I guess that after all this time, I'm thankful that I had those experiences because it's something to pass on to other generations that don't even know what it feels like to have a uniform check up.

But I have to be happy about something, they are coming up really smart: everyone of them thinks Chad Michael Murray is HOT! lol.