What was I thinking?

Am I incapable to say no?!?

Well, if you've talked to me you know that I can say no, lol, but not to the things that I should. I just keep getting into more work and more time at the tutoring center. And school is totally kicking my ass!

The people at the foundation offered me something that I couldn't turn down. And the foundation is so important to me that I definitely don't have the heart to say no. And the girls need it so much. How can you say no to that?

Then the tutoring center. I think of cutting down some of the hours I work there, and I tried to do that last week. It was impossible! I even had to work later than I usually do and go in earlier. And a mom asked me to tutor a kid on Saturdays. And I love my kids, even if they're spoiled I have so much fun. I love them to much to leave them. One of the younger ones asked me if I was going to leave him forever. And one of the older kids said that I might have grown bored with them. What do you say to that?

And then school. I'm definitely skipping school tomorrow. I didn't finish either of the assingments. I had to read a book. Now, normally I read two or three books at a time per week.... when I pick the topic. But when it's impossed, there's no way that I can actually get through the fucking book. This book I'm supposed to read: it couldn't have been over 300 hundred pages. I could have read it in one afternoon... and didn't. I had to read the newspaper, to find some things about the correct use of some words.. didn't do that either. They weren't even hard assignmets! Ugh, I hate that I did this, because that is completely unlike me.

And then, men are stupid. Not all of them, mostly the ones I've been involved with. Mostly one, though. I got an email on Valentine's Day from my exboyfriend. That totally sucked. I didn't read it though. Didn't really want to.

I did get a marriage proposal. That was sweet. From someone at the tutoring center that decided to drop by on Valentine's day. I also got chocolates. So the day wasn't that bad. But the week, it sucked big time!! I had a major slump during the week. I was sad most of the time. I didn't think that Valentine's (or the letter) would hit me as hard but it did.

But today was good. I got a chance to talk to Raven. Though things didn't work out the way we planned. Stupid audioblogger didn't work. It was a personalized message for her. lol. I promise babe that I will still try to do it!

And as I was saying goodbye to Raven, Iris dropped in and I stayed talking with her until I don't know how late. So it's a good thing that I'm skipping school tomorrow.

Big hug for everyone!

Ah, the holidays..

Valentine's Day is coming along. And I have a bunch of friends to celebrate it, but no boyfriend. Bleh!

Last year, my friends and I got together and went to a bar and it was so much fun. We had to carry two of them outside, because they couldn't stand on their own. It was so much fun!!! We drank wine, and then switched to "cucarachas", and they were wasted. I was driving so I had to cut back a little... but didn't really, I just went into the bathroom and threw up and I was ready to go. Gross!! Of course, but it was either that or sleep at the bar. And my friends house wasn't that far from the bar so it was a short drive. The next day, hang over from hell..... Astrid made one of these soups with eggs and a bunch of nasty stuff in it.

So, this year we went to lunch on Thursday to start a celebration since most of my friends have boyfriends of their own now. Their stressing out about what to get them, and that is one thing that I don't miss about being in a relationship.... other than that I miss everything. So while we were having lunch, one of my now-with-a-boyfriend friends said "Do you remember last year when went to that bar on our own? [insert laugh] we were such losers!" My guess is that she probably doesn't remember that I would probably do that again.. .so I guess I'm still a loser then.

Pissed me off a bit, considering that her relationship is a big fat lie, and she's with that person because she wants to say that she has a boyfriend. I guess she also forgot that she said that she didn't find him attractive in the least, and later on said that she was hoping that she would eventually fall in love with him. But she's not happy. I rather be single, so I am!

Changing the mood a bit, and considering that my family never actually celebrates something in the date set for it, I am going to celebrate Valentine's with them today. My dad will be out of the country starting tomorrow, so we won't get to celebrate it together. My parents are big on celebrating things together, so we do that often. We never celebrate birthdays on our birth dates either.

So, as a finishing paragraph for this blog I want to wish everyone a very Happy Valentine's Day werther you have someone to celebrate it with or not.

HaPpY VaLeNtInE's DaY!